Decisions

Making decisions is so difficult, especially when your life depends (even partially) on the choice you are trying to make. Sometimes I debate whether having an ample amount of choices available is better than having a select few options. It usually goes down like this: (Me thinking) Well, having lots of choices is helpful because you have the opportunity to do many different things and you are keeping your options open. But wait, the more options you have, the harder it is to make the right decision, and the more disappointed you feel if you make the wrong decision. Why am I even thinking about this? I think I've made the wrong decision in deciding to think about decisions. What am I saying? I think too much.... Yeah, that's what happens when I contemplate the world. I usually end up in a web of ideas. On another note, I love doing work at night. (I know, random huh?) I think that is why I put everything off until it is past midnight. I just like it though. Even doing homework is more fun when I do it at night. It is said that: "Night time is really the best time to work. All the ideas are there to be yours because everyone else is asleep." I totally agree. I don't want to go too deeply into this topic, though, because it deserves a whole post on its own. Well, I guess I should end it there. Until next time...

Life's Lesson

I came to an important realization today. I learned that a person isn't aware of how valuable something is until he or she loses it. This is true for anything.

Maybe Thomas Hobbes was right. Maybe humans are naturally selfish. Only when you lose in life do you understand what is truly important. Otherwise, it's like the human eye is covered, causing it to be blind, until reality reveals the truth and throws it in your face. Maybe it's humans who conceal the truth because of the desire to ignore it and focus on the sweet dreams that can be seen when reality is asleep. Maybe we don't want to see how cruel life truly is so we isolate ourselves from its thorns.

Being realistic is what is rational, but being realistic all the time kills the soul, for the human heart thrives on hope for all that is good. Victor Hugo once said, "The human soul has still greater need of the ideal than of the real. It is by the real that we exist; it is by the ideal that we live." This is very true indeed. We exist in reality, but flourish in the happy thoughts that flow though the mind.

Here is another quote that can express my point:

"The best thing about dreams is that fleeting moment, when you are between asleep and awake, when you don't know the difference between reality and fantasy, when for just that one moment you feel with your entire soul that the dream is reality, and it really happened."

Unfortunately, I don't know who said this, but whoever did is very right. There are times when one wishes we lived in a world where only those happy dreams exist. However, we don't and the only option we have is to deal with it. Otherwise, life won't go on and everyone will be stuck inside, looking out the window and watching life pass by without being able to do anything...

Emotional Outbreak

This post is mainly going to be a rant, so be prepared.

I am really angry and stressed. I signed up for something at school just to find out that it is not available. I really really wanted that thing! Ugh. Life is so unfair; that is why I am considering becoming a lawyer. I want to bring as much justice to the world as I can. Then again, there are reasons why I don't want to become a laywer as well. Well, that is besides the point. If I go into my career decision process, my blog will crash. As I was saying, I am angry (if that isn't obvious enough yet). There are several things that are stressing me out. Oh, I should mention that the week ahead of me is going to be killer! I have so much to do. Aaahhh!!

Sometimes I wish there was a device that could measure how much someone's psychological state has deteriorated since the day they were born. I would love to know my result. See? I went off-topic again!

Ok, let me just give a quote to make things better, because a quote always makes everything better. Haha. Here it is:

"The best answer to anger is silence."
-Anonymous

Then there is Maroon 5's version:

"I am in misery,
There ain't nobody who can comfort me.
Why won't you answer me?
The silence is slowly killing me."
-From their song "Misery"

I think I like Maroon 5's perspective more. Anyway, I found this poem. It's meant to describe street children. I love poetry so much. It's like putting emotions into words. Let me know what you guys think. (By the way, it doesn't have a title).

"A child looks at me.
Her eyes are full of emptiness,
Her heart cold as stone.
Her stare pierces through me,
The anger and sorrow transferring to my heart.
Her small feet are bare,
Her small hands shake from the cold.
She is fearful,
Frightened by everyone and everything.
Tears flow down her pale face,
But are concealed my the rain drops.
She cries for her future,
Hoping it will be nothing like her past.
I take a step forward,
But she walks away.
All that remains is the stillness of her cold,
But weak stare.
It hangs in the misty air,
Never to fall back down again..."

I think I will end it at that note. Hopefully I will be sane in my next post. Until next time...